Enticing Deutch Odyssey

Ive already been here for 5 weeks... To say that im completely enjoying myself, it would be a false statement... Sometimes, thoughts of my comfort zone just pops up in my mind and its often instigated by particular events... The nostalgic feeling arises once again...When this occurs, i often resolve to friends back in msia, but it turns out that i often have to endure unreciprocated mails... On the surface i may just look like the normal me, but deep down, im indeed very much affeceted..

Back in Msia, I could be described as an extrovert, a very much friend oriented person.. This can be interperated as sth negative actually.. I find it rather hard being alone at times, perhaps hard is not the right word... Dislike is the word.. So being here for now would be a training ground for me to change this part of me.. To prompt me to learn to be 'alone' at times...

Being here, the people are friendly... And thats the problem, they are just FRIENDLY. (Fullstop, nothing more) Its hard to get intimate n stuff.. Perhaps, ive been only here a month n im giving myself too much pressure by pushing myself to the limits in learning the language n making new friends...Well, its not perhaps, its sth true as i know another exchange student who came 5 months earlier than i did n she told me that a month is far too lil.. Normally it takes 3 to 4 months to understand the language n be accepted into the clan...So i should just chill a lil... Knowing this is one thing, but its easier said then done.. Considering myself a zealous person, im allways eager in accomplishing sth.. But guess for now i'll try to chill... :)

In short, I think expectations such as making friends fast or receiveing constant emails frm frens back in msia etc are the main cause of me feeling a lil weird n un-me.. It prompts me to ask W questions.. What if.. Why?? Guess this path is one i chose, n i shouldnt look back at all.. Just finish the path...

Im ok here actually, just a post to express the nostalgia... One thing, the stars here at night ate just wonderful.. N it is true, looking at the stars can really make one think of ppl dear to them... :P Would be gr8 to hear frm u peeps frm time to time... Chao.